It’s too fast
I’ve waited for this moment
Am I a little scared? Or am I excited?
To be honest, it hurts to send you away.
Everyday went by slowly, I prayed for time to pass by quickly
But right now, I feel the opposite
I’d like this moment to stop for a bit
Time, don’t stay here, go somewhere else.
Once again back to 13
I still can’t believe it, but I’m alright
I’m satisfied that my life came with a lot of luck
But this moment that I’ve wated for
Even before I started to live happily
Is here and
I want to stop time
I’m still not ready
But the 20-year-old me is waiting.
Why does this day feel like its passing by so quickly
When I count to three
Can everything disappear like a dream?
And I go back to where I was before.
Go back to those days
Where every day was the same
If “right now” passes, then it’ll seem too far
It’ll feel like I won’t be able to see the current me again.
Now, the way I talk has become more mature
It’s a bit unfamiliar, but I walk around like I’m confident
But I still feel like a middle school student
Who’s acting like an adult
This eerie feeling makes adrenaline rush in me.
The hours after 10 pm gain pace
The signs that don’t allow teens, don’t relate to me anymore
But my Dad and Mum still look at me like a kid
And strangely, this is something I’m still used to.
Soon I’ll have to take off my teenager tag
This should be good enough
Continue on naturally, don’t be uncomfortable
Every body was like this too.
The 20-year-old that I wanted to become so badly
Did everyone go through the same experience,
Or am I the only one?
This place that felt so awkward
Is now my home
This space that felt so big
Now seems small to me
The things that I’ve been dreaming of have taken off
And when I look out the window, they are ready to land.
Now that I’m at the brink of being 20,
I’m hesitant of what lies ahead
But Chronos is cruel, it can’t be helped
Now I let you go.